Desperately Seeking Silver Lining

momshatziI received some very sad news earlier this week. My dear mother has been diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer, which is a very invasive cancer and only treatable in its earlier stages. Hearing news like this literally feels like you have been punched in the gut. Naturally I was very upset. I instantly started to cry and it felt like I would never stop. I allowed the tears to flow, I felt sorrow and pain for my mom, for our family and fear about the future. After a while, the tears started to slow down, and eventually they stopped and I decided to look for the good, if any, in this situation.

Years ago, this news might have destroyed me. Now, I’m stronger, I am more resilient. I trust the universe and my life path and ultimately, I know that everything is going to be OK. One of my favorite writers, Rose Cole once said something in her newsletter, which completely touched my heart and always comforts me in times of distress. Although I can’t quote her words exactly, the gist of it was that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience and therefore, nothing can truly hurt us. Whenever I recall this statement, it reminds me that all of it is part of having this sacred human experience, the joy, the love, the laughter as well as the tears, the pain and the heartache. We couldn’t truly feel and appreciate the positive, if we didn’t know what the negative feels like.

My mom landed in the hospital after fracturing a rib and puncturing a lung. In most cases, one would see this as a negative experience. The injury resulted in some medical tests including a CT scan, which showed the cancer on her pancreas. Thank god my mom fractured her rib and as a result had this test done. It appears the cancer has not spread beyond her pancreas, a positive diagnosis for her situation. She is actually a candidate for surgery to have the tumor removed. Usually by the time pancreatic cancer is diagnosed, it has spread throughout the body, surgery is no longer an option and the prospects, at least according to western medicine, are grim.

I am grateful we caught it in its early stage. I am grateful that my mom is being well taken care of by a team of excellent doctors. I am grateful for all of the loving support our family is receiving from the amazing people in our lives and all of the prayers that are coming her way. I am grateful that my mom is a strong person, someone who has been practicing the art of positive thinking and has let its beneficial effects touch her life. I am grateful that I have my sister as another loving supporter that will be there with my mom. I am also grateful that there are many, many reports of people out there that have cured themselves of even stage 5 pancreatic cancer through nutrition and other natural means. I am grateful for the Internet, which allows me to research all of this from the comfort of my own home and be inspired by all of those that have overcome this disease.

In the immediate future, I will focus on helping my mom heal and overcome this challenge in all ways possible. I intend to be physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually supportive of her during all phases of her recovery. I intend to also take good care of myself while we go through this journey together. Every opportunity I get, I will look for the good in the situation and what it has to teach us. And every day, I will thank the heavens for having another day with my mom.

If you have any words of wisdom for us as we go through this journey, please post your comments below.

We’ve also set up a fundraiser page for my mom which you can visit here:

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6 Responses to Desperately Seeking Silver Lining

  1. Diana says:

    You are a beautiful soul


  2. Linda says:

    Vanessa, your words are beautiful and inspiring. Your mother is very lucky to have you. I wish your mother and all of your family the very best.


  3. Evelyn says:

    Wonderful post thank you for posting it I could not agree more with all you said I feel better bless you!!! Sending love and prayers every moment!


  4. nrhbirdz says:

    Vanessa – the family resemblance is something! I’m so sorry to hear about your mom, but good news that she learned about it early. I wish her…and you… strength in the fight against this cancer.
    It was nice to hear from you! I think of you often.


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